"unspeakable wrongness"

It's still raining. And I'm so BORED. So I'm afraid this'll probably just be a post full of me whinging. Blogs are back in now, so almost everyone has one to do precisely that. Whinge. I've never had a blog before. It's a bit exciting! Berry has one. Somewhere. He's never shown me, but every so often when I'm bored, I try to find it. It's almost impossible to get inside his head. I wish I could. I'd love to know what he's thinking. Especially when he looks at me. Don't get me wrong! I have no romantic illusions about Berry, I think he could be gay actually. Or just to caught up in fantasy to have time for a girlfriend. Or a lifemate. Though I expect he'll have one someday.

It's a law now. We all have to. Gay or straight. And everyone has to have a child. Whether it's their own or was made for them. Until we can make up numbers again. For every baby born, someone dies from gas inhalation. It's a kind of murder now. So, if you locked someone outside on purpose without a mask or anything, then you could get charged for it. Given the amount of security they have around now, it's impossible to get away with anything, though a few people have tried. I think it's stupid. Really stupid. I wouldn't do something unless I thought there was a pretty decent chance I could get away with it, but some people don't even care about that. Crimes of passion and that sort of thing...but it's harder to use that defence now than it was in the past. I read alot about the olden days. Back before my parents were born and when things seemed so much more complicated.

I've been in love with Berry since we were both 6 years old. I think he knows. I don't expect much of him, I don't think he'd understand how love and all that comes with it works, he analyses everything, but I love him all the same.